Do you ever look back to your old posts...

Manibrandr System · Fri Nov 27, 2020 12:53 am

...and realize just how much you have changed? Because, wow, yeah...15 years makes a huge difference. Back then, I've only existed for 2 years, while inheriting all of Joan/Iselyn's memories, and I had no idea back then that I am plural.

Back then, I was a confused trans girl trying to cope with dysphoria, and abusive drunken mother, and figuring myself out just knowing that i rebel against religion. Today, I present myself before you, with pride and confidence of being femme-leaning non-binary, in a system consisting of an agender woman who was the original personality, and a more vindictive traumagenic split. I am once again an anarchist and an iconoclast, but I have rediscovered my spirituality via totemism and rebirth animism, and have come to terms with my own neurodivergence.

The only real constant between the two time periods is that I am with Ratty_Randnums, who I am engaged with now.

Posted: Fri Nov 27, 2020 1:25 am Post subject:

I was very cringe 15 years ago

I'm less cringe now, but yeah... maybe just a little less cringe haha. I'm still occasionally

but not as much as teenager me.

Manibrandr System · Posted: Fri Nov 27, 2020 1:34 am Post subject:

I am just glad y'all weren't around me as much during the 2-3 years I've spent around fascists and alt-right furries.

psychokind · Posted: Fri Nov 27, 2020 8:43 am Post subject:

oh jesus I wouldn't even know where to begin

Manibrandr System · Posted: Fri Nov 27, 2020 9:58 am Post subject:

psychokind wrote:oh jesus I wouldn't even know where to begin

We can start with your earliest posts.

SoulBlazerFan · Posted: Fri Nov 27, 2020 7:05 pm Post subject:

Its weird to me. Life has changed so much around me. Somehow I feel stuck in a rutt and I actually feel mentally in the same place I was 15 years ago. Maybe just a tad lonelier. I dont feel I've really changed all that much, maybe the briefest amount more confidence in my ability to do my job but really besides that... I don't know. I'm horrible at self reflection lol.

psychokind · Posted: Sat Nov 28, 2020 7:04 am Post subject:

SoulBlazerFan wrote:Its weird to me. Life has changed so much around me. Somehow I feel stuck in a rutt and I actually feel mentally in the same place I was 15 years ago. Maybe just a tad lonelier. I dont feel I've really changed all that much, maybe the briefest amount more confidence in my ability to do my job but really besides that... I don't know. I'm horrible at self reflection lol.

I guess for me it's the opposite then. I'm so different to 15-20 years ago I can't even remember what my train of thought was during puberty. and I consider my puberty to start from 13 to about 21 to 22ish. that's around the time I think I started to think like a human being. I don't regret anything major though, and for most of my friends (that I still have all of today) I'd say the same. it was a really wild ride that we all made it out of together unharmed, we're all still together and enjoy our boring adult lives now

Jason Tandro · Posted: Sun Nov 29, 2020 3:41 pm Post subject:

Fucks sake we all know what I was like: an ultra-religious conservative who was constantly horny and a bit of prick.

Now, 15 years later, I'm no longer an ultra-religious conservative.

Posted: Sun Nov 29, 2020 8:22 pm Post subject:

You forgot 'a heathen who doesn't know how to drink proper hot chocolate'

Jason Tandro · Posted: Tue Dec 01, 2020 5:28 pm Post subject:

Ayo my FB life and my TE life don't mix. I'm not even the same person XD.

Posted: Tue Dec 01, 2020 7:25 pm Post subject:

THAT'S STILL THE SAME PERSON I'M SORRY. Otherwise yes, they don't mix but that transcends borders!

psychokind · Posted: Wed Dec 02, 2020 12:59 pm Post subject:

Jason Tandro wrote:Ayo my FB life and my TE life don't mix. I'm not even the same person XD.

when I visited your profile during the time you vanished once I thought the same

Jason Tandro · Posted: Sat Dec 05, 2020 9:41 pm Post subject:

psychokind wrote:
Jason Tandro wrote:Ayo my FB life and my TE life don't mix. I'm not even the same person XD.
when I visited your profile during the time you vanished once I thought the same

"the time" I vanished. As if there was only one, XD.

Flamez · Posted: Mon Dec 07, 2020 8:26 am Post subject:

Almost 20 years of TE - The difference is stark.

My catch phrase was 'Flamez is God! You remeber that', spelling mistake and all. I think it came from the proboard era where someone called themselves "GamerGod", I couldn't except someone being better than me at games. I was such a mature teenager.

Blade · Posted: Mon Dec 07, 2020 4:43 pm Post subject:

My initial nickname was Blade_OnMy_Veins. 'nuf said.

@Val: sounds like one hell of a life journey you had so far. Any silver lining on the horizon?